Being in a Dark Place. I’m telling you this because I know how much time you can waste trying to explain yourself to people. I’m writing this letter to you because I know you need something to read when you’re in a bad place. I'm thankful that I attend Texas A&M University. I have no intrest in doing anything whatsoever. I don’t really feel any emotion...I just feel numb. Don’t let anyone push you around. I'm too afraid to say anything. You deserve and need to know you’re not alone. I want to cry, but I can't. For a while, I thought things started to improve..I started long to therapy, but still didn’t open up about how I felt, because it makes me feel vulnerable. Always speak to your doctor before acting and in cases of emergency seek Upgrade to Patient Pro Medical Professional? You’re going to leave a mark on the world, whether it’s on the kids you teach or someone else, people will know you were there. jack57270. But stop expecting yourself to be able to explain how you feel. Registered in England and Wales. I have no self confidence, when I look at myself, I think I'm a failure and I'll be alone for the rest of my life. Hey, you pretty much reminding me of my self. I know it seems like some people don’t understand, and truthfully, they don’t. Privacy I hope — I know — life is going to get better. But you have got to stop expecting people to understand. I feel like I'm a nuisance because people give out to me when I snap at them, or get cheeky. People will remember you long after you’re gone. When you believe that is when things start to change. I'm in a dark place. Dear Nathalie, I’m writing this letter to you because I know you need something to read when you’re in a bad place. If o don show emotion, it's just to try seem normal to other people. Just stop and breathe. People will tell you they’ve had similar experiences and you should listen to their stories. But believe them. Patient aims to help the world proactively manage its healthcare, supplying evidence-based information on a wide range of medical and health topics to patients and health professionals. It appears you entered an invalid email. I hope someone can understand it. I don't want to say anything because she's looking forward to it. That kind of thinking can really hurt you. His reason was that he had never truly been single (he is 22 and I am 33) and needed space to grow and mature. You are always going back through your old journals when you’re depressed or just in a bad place. respect of any healthcare matters. You are so incredibly important. This is life, we all experience bad things and some of us experience really bad things lets say like me and you . No matter how much you want them to. And someone else. You have to embrace the dark to get to the light, and it sucks, but the beauty on the other side of diving into pain is so beautiful.”- Cherie Aimée. There are no words you can piece together to exactly describe how you feel. Cry if you have to, but accept these things are true. Add Comment “The light is in the dark. I'm young im going through a lot in my life, because im young and the people around me are also young i feel like they dont really get what i feel, and that im the only one feeling this way, like they will never get me! I am here to tell you that none of that is true. I’m sure you could come up with many more, too. All rights reserved. It’s impossible. You will of course be reminded by people that you’re loved, brilliant, never alone and worth more than gold, but you need to remind yourself, too. I have to move out of the house for a minimum of 5 weeks while the work is being done ( maximum 8 months). I haven’t been sleeping, which has me exhausted. I make up excuses so I don't need to go out with friends. I'm thankful for my job and the opportunity I have to serve kiddos daily. I went to my doctor about it, and she told me it’s stress...and put me on pills. Replies are much appreciated. Just try to look at things positively everything will be better i promise you! I know I need to show my emotions, but I can't. You are never worthless. When someone tells you how beautiful you are, how amazing you are, how life-changing you are — look that person in the eyes. Well, I’m here to tell you to stop laughing. I have had this knot in my stomach, like I was about to go in for an exam, or play an important game. No one can completely understand how you feel. Start accepting compliments because you deserve them. I hope this helped you, I’m not great at giving advice, but I try my best! You are incredible. I am in NO CONTACT purgatory! I am here to tell you, to remind you, it is going to get better. Most of all, don’t be afraid to speak up. Start smiling and be gracious. I’m constantly tired..and I’ve stopped going to the gym. I know this is a good thing, but I don't want anything to change. The last few days have been the worst. That kind of thinking can really hurt you. I know when you’re in a dark place, your vision is clouded. My boyfriend of 1 1/2 years broke up with me suddenly 3 weeks ago tonight. But they don't understand that I wake up every morning and struggle to find a reason to get out of bed. 2020 Mighty Proud Media, Inc. All Rights Reserved. I just feel numb, no emotions. 4. When ever I’m in a really dark place...I remember the good days, and that’s what makes life worth it. It feels like you’re just drowning in gray clouds. I've never acted on my suicidal thoughts, but I have thought IF I was going to kill myself, how would I do it. We want the forums to be a useful resource for our users but it is important to remember that the forums are You’re feeling like you’re the worst person on the planet. So i always try to look funny and happy then i go home and i take off all of my masks and go back into my anxiety mode. and Privacy Policy and steps will be taken to remove posts identified You are not alone, not in any way. I don't want to end up getting pumped full of drugs. I don't know if this makes sense, but it's how I feel right now. This isn't a cry for help, but a place to vent. The most I do now is walk my dog ( but I guess it’s  better than nothing). Some periods of darkness last a few weeks, others a few years. Posted by 2 hours ago. You’re going to change lives. Hi Maddie...I’ve no idea how I stumbled across this post...I forgot I even posted it!! Like before, I lied about how I felt and stopped going. Don’t be scared to tell someone how you feel. Since my Dad passed away ( nearly a year ago) I've had good days and bad days. Terms. Patient is a UK registered trade mark. This has been affecting my school work, and social life. It’s so funny how many times you will hear those words describing you and you just laugh. Before you start overwhelming me with kind complements let me start by saying thank you and no thank you. You are amazing. No matter how much it might feel true, it’s not.